If you picked her up, she went all stiff and her legs shot straight out. Today she was like a newborn baby in my arms molding to my body. I cried desperately and told her what a good dog she was and what a wonderful friend and part of our family she had been.Then I laid her on her bed, and called for the kids from their Dads so they had a chance to say good-bye to her.I’ve been such a hermit since I had that episode and missed five weeks of work and all. It’s been 10 months since he moved away and are things any different? I don’t feel scared to say what I really feel anymore and I’m committed to doing that on a regular basis. and started making plans to drive the two hours up here and take me to dinner. He sent me his vacation days and talked about going to the coast but didn’t out right invite me. If you remember my earlier story about Duke, then you know that we met when we first joined the Marines and he was dating a friend of mine.
If it all happened that way, of course I would give it a go with The Duke… I mean, even though we have been close emotionally, there are so many things he doesn’t know about me… I can’t tell you how many nights I was startled awake and jumping out of bed to find her running like a maniac through my apartment. In fact, she had to spend a few nights out in the yard to accomplish it.
Like I’m messy and really a homebody– while he is not. She was a quiet little portly black and white smooth fox terrier with a heart-shaped black spot on her back.
We cried and cried and petted her and slathered her with love…
Wrapped her in our favorite softest blanket we had and told her all the wonderful things our hearts could hold.
He has such a BIG life with his career and his non-profit organization and publicity events. I don’t know that our lifestyles are compatible, not to mention I am not leaving this really small town, so he’d have to come here and there is no work. She was about 10 years old when we got her, and started out very timid when we met her at the shelter.
Of course he’ll be retired then with a decent pention, but his ex-wife would be drawing half of that, not to mention half of the rest of his assets. Yet, as we loved on her and helped her feel more secure and comfortable, she warmed up.Still, sometimes he paints a picture of something like laying on a blanket in his arms under a tree… Unfortunately, I think this just makes things harder. We have been getting closer over this last year to year and a half… I don’t know, but we’ve been talking nearly every day since. I was pretty jazzed at first, but he seems quieter since that last conversation. I’m doing what I can to get well, and get my own life in order and take care of my great kids. It’s been about 2 and a half months now since The Duke climbed on to a military plane and flew halfway around the world for a year long deployment.I do believe that sometimes a marriage becomes so bad, and one partner refuses to try to make the marriage any better– the only option left is to go your own way. I’ve never been one to go overboard with pets like some. I guess I am kinda middle of the road on things like that. She was a smooth fox terrier and just had that pursuit gene wired in to her brain.Still, once again, I don’t want to be a factor in that situation at all. Spoiling them with ridiculous bling and carrying them around like accessories. I also don’t think people should adopt pets and then leave them alone trapped in the back yard or on a chain either. I got my girl, Wiggles, just after my separation from the ex-husband. I was really struggling living on my own half the time (when sharing custody), the first time not living with another adult human EVER. She especially enjoyed this pastime in the middle of the night.I took the kids back to their fathers for the night and came home to be with my wonderful dear friend.